Well I have been soul searchin, wondering, lost in fog, blazin new trails and........
The above all is true but to narrow it down heres a story.
My former boss and friend that I have blogged about before lost his battle with cancer and I didn't realize just how much of a friend I considered him and I think I saw him as a father figure. I lost my Dad in 04 and Dad and my friend Jerry Turner had alot of views in common and I did not realize just how much he impacted my life and it was kinda like losing a parent again. I feel like I abandoned him when I left the job but, as him and I talked, he told me he understood my reasons and held no ill will.
I did contiue to see and talk to him so I had to sort all those feelings out-
My relationship with Pickles and the rest of the family has changed. I still talk and see her and love her and my family dearly but we have different views in things now and my inability to be anything other than a "black and white thinker" has changed our relationship. I had to sort all those feelings out-
I took a break from working for a few months and then got another job that was brief and O so wrong for me thennother job that was good and I was not looking for another one when a old friend called and offered me a job in Sept and I am at least on the work front back on track. and I was feelin like I was letting Critter down by changing jobs so much and I had to sort all those feelings out-
My bay mare Pic founderd in the spring so bad I thought we might have to put her down but, she has turned out to be a fighter :-) She has been penned in a small area for all of the summer and she has just recently been able to get out for short times and that has been a blessing. I felt so bad. My ignorence in not knowing all the signs and feeling responsible for letting her get bad due to my lack of knowledge as an owner. These animals are as you know just like human kids to me.
Not to mention with the drought here in Texas We are in search of Hay and the prices are unreal and my message to all the price gougers. Karma, people KARMA just know you are causing horses to be abandonded or killed just because you are so greedy! there is nothing wrong with a profit but what some of yall are doing is a shame!!! Not profit but greed!!!
I had to sort all those feelings out-
Then we moved to the farm full time and rented our house out and we were starting to "see the light " money wise then the renter bailed and we moved another one in and ended up throwing that one out! We have had at least 10 contacts/signed offerers on but believe it or not all have been bat@#^$ crazy folk!!
I have had to sort those feelings out-
So, here we are. I am doing ok and Critter and I are doing good and I am learning how to deal with life and back to bloggin :-)
Next post will be about me putting a saddle on the wall. :-) See ya soon :-)
Sounds like you've had a lot to deal with. Hope things are better now. You've been missed.
ReplyDeleteWell, my goodness, girl, you've had alot of things on your plate to "sort out"! Sorry about that - when it rains... I know you'll get everything figured out. You have convicted me to stay on top of things when I get my horses - with their health and such. I don't want to be ignorant and let something happen to them either. I have two good friends that are "pros" when it comes to horses, so hopefully, I can be a good horse owner. I hope to get some soon. Waiting on my husband to find another job. I'm also sorry about the loss of your friend. I'm sure he knew how you felt about him and your friendship. The job was just business I imagine - it had nothing to do with Him. I know he'll be missed. Chin up, friend, it's all going to work itself out. God bless ya ~~~
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