Have you ever had a day in which if you owned a machete there would be a trail of headless idiots that had went just one step to far and said trail would lead right to you? Well, Bingo guess who had one of those days. Critter is not one of these selfish, unfeeling, mindless no goods I have mentioned but he seemed to have picked up on my solemn mood and kept at a distance. What brought on the mood you ask ?
To keep peoples lives private I must skirt the issue but someone I care very much about, is in a situation no one wants to be in and some uncaring people who are clueless and think only of themselves like to open their mouths when they should remain closed.
I know that with life there is death and no matter how bad I want the world to stop and the clocks not to chime so everyone could focus all their prayers and good thoughts to this man so he could somehow be well. I know this is not reality no matter how hard I pray.
I had just got angry today at how people can just seem so careless and not think about what they say maybe, it's not them I got mad at, but the situation. I don't know. I do know I hate feeling helpless. I do be believe in prayer. I am ashamed for how angry I got today. I let my anger get to me so bad that I came home from work early and just wanted to be alone.
I spent 45 min on the phone with Mom on the way home and I don't think during the whole conversation I let her get in 5 words. She listened with patience and empathy and let me know that she loved me and that no matter how unfair it is and how I see things God does have a plan that I must trust. I know in my heart she is right.
I think the only reason I am blogging now is to get my mind to stop racing.
What does tomorrow bring?
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